Stood Up

He was suppose to come between 5:00p and 8:00p. I left work at 2:00 just to make sure I'd be home in time, make sure the place looked nice, everything in order. All I needed was for him to hook me up, provide a service, tell me to have a nice day, simple stuff. I felt anxious at 4:30 because I know how it is. It has happened to me before, I've been here standing at the window watching every car go by wondering if it's him. At 5:30 I'm restless. He's late. It doesn't matter what the window of time is, to me he's late. He's not thinking about me as much as I am him, clearly. It's 5:45.

At 6:00, I call to see where he is. Nobody knows. Nobody can answer my questions. Why is he not here? When will I see him?

At 6:30 I cook dinner. I don't know what else to do. I can only stand at the window and watch for so long. I can't take the disappointment when I see my neighbor's car, the ice cream truck, a boy on a bike passing by. Nobody is thinking about me, nobody has respect for my time. All I needed was for him to show up, let me know that I too am important.

At 7:00 my mind races, my anger grows, my self pity is back. How can he do me like this? Me? What have I done to him? I'm a nice person! All I needed was for him to hook me up. That's it.

At 8:00 I know the deal. No need to continue to hold onto the false hope that I matter in all of this. It doesn't matter how I feel or that I stayed home and waited for him. It just doesn't matter.

At 9:30 I get a phone call.."Ms. Durty, I'm sorry but can we reschedule your high speed internet installation for tomorrow? The technician is stuck on another job and it's already 9:30."

That my friends, is the story of my dayum life!